tears and rain

How I wish I could surrender my soul
Shed the clothes that become my skin
See the liar that burns within my needing
How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold
How I wish I had screamed out loud
Instead I've found no meaning
I guess it's time I run far, far away ;
Find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same :
It just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray *1).
I've heard what they say,
But I'm not here for trouble.
It's more than just words :
It's just tears and rain.
How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind ;
Hold memory close at hand,
Help me understand the years.
How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell.
How I wish I would save my soul.
I'm so cold from fear.
I guess it's time I run far, far away ;
Find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same :
It just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say,
But I'm not here for trouble.
It's more than just words :
It's just tears and rain.